tell me why

i wrote what happened at starbucks today but erased it all because i don't want anyone to feel sorry or worried over me. i'll be ok, i'm strong! :Dand here's my favorite poem by pablo neruda:Tonight i can write the saddest lines Tonight I can write the saddest lines. Write, for example, 'The night is shattered And blue stars shiver in the distance'. The night wind revolves in the sky and sings. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too. Through the nights like this one I held her in my arms. I kissed her over and over again under the endless sky. She loved me, sometimes I did love her too. How could I not have loved her great eyes. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her. To hear the immense night, still more immense without her. And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture. What does it matter if my love could not keep her. The night is shattered and she is not with me. This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance. My soul is not satisfied because it has lost her. My sight searches for her as though to go to her. My heart looks for her, and she is no longer with me. The same night whitening the same trees. We both of that time are no longer the same. I no longer love her, that's true, but how much I have loved her. My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing. Another’s. She will be another’s. Like my kisses before. Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes. I no longer love her, that’s true, but maybe I do love her. Love is so short and forgetting is so long. Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms My soul is not satisfied because it has lost her. Though this is the last pain that she makes me suffer And these the last verses I do write for her.i don't usually read poems, but i love this one a lot. thank you for today ami <3 but whenever i'm feeling down, Garfield always puts a little curve on my lip.-denise

taken from albany's post:

Relationships, whether friendly or romantic, are not that black and white. Every person is susceptible to a wide range of emotions, even if we don't want to admit it. The more time you spend with someone, the wider the range of emotions you feel with them. So what? So, maybe once you grasped each other's hands during a scary movie...maybe once, you held each other close because you were sad...in those moments, you felt a sense of comfort, safety, and love. When it comes to emotions, people are stupid. People get confused and for a fleeting moment they consider the possibilities...because it would be nice to feel that comfort and love all of the time.That is why we fall for our friends._______________________________I can't rememberthe last thing that you saidas you were leaving.Now the days go by so fast._______________________________i was just moodly yesterday, that's all, and it dragged through to today. i was suppose to get off work later tonight, but i had to leave early because i was having a terrible headache. prior to that, i was frustrated because this girl F-ed everything up so it was more work for me. thank goodness i'm going to have some time to myself tomorrow. i'm thinking ... hitting a bookstore and lounging for a good 3 hours with a vanilla latte, or just sitting at home being a giant blob. oh yes, shopping too. banana republic is having a sale. you know i'll be there .. i mentally picked everything out already, i just have to try everything on to see if i really like it :)-denise

sorry, i love you. but all i can give you is pain.

Eunchae (aka rock head) talking to Cha Moonhyuk (aka Ahjuhshi):To die ...Is that a big deal?It's just normal.People all die once.For the time there is to live, love a lot.Happily, Beautifully, Nicely ...That's how to live.To be like this without talking.Don't you feel that it's a waste in the time you have?Cha Moonhyuk, you rock headLater, after you leave ...Our rockhead; how sad she would be ...And that's why you're running away like this.I know Ahjuhshi.But there is something that you don't knowFor the people that still have something,They'll do anything to live.It's sad for the people that die ...People who are bound to live will do anything to do so.And I'm a rock head ..I lose things ...I forget things ...My head is really stupid.I ...After a month, I'll probably forget everything easily.In that one month, I'll spend time with my heart hurting ...After a month passes by, I'll meet my friends and talk.Go out and eat ...And watch a comedy program and laugh ...I'll live very wellSo you don't have to worry about me.So after I let you go ...Shouldn't have been mean.Should've been nicer.Should have loved more.Don't let me regret.Play with me, Ahjuhshi.:'( There's only one more episode .... Let's see what will happen in the end. *sigh* .. i'm still waiting for the subtitles to come out ~.~ i want to lean korean, i want to learn korean! but i did learn a few phrases after watching this! :D like i can now say "sorry", "i love you", "brother", "mom", "mister", "sister", etc ... i've been saying "ahjuhshi" like everywhere i go now because eunchae ALWAYS calls moonhyuk that. hehee :3

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